Category Archives: Pah

Laxative for the brain?

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In my head I had thoughts of photos and lovely sentiments for awesome birthday posts for both Mom and Spencer.

They didn’t quite come out the way I wanted. I still can’t seem to write more than just the basic stuff as the emo block is still in play.  It is affecting a lot of aspects of my life.

Someday I’ll be able to write again.

There has been a creative block – but after 2 months, I’ve found myself wanting to make something again.


I’ve been trying to finish two projects that I had been working on before I ran off to Texas and Mom passed away. The knitting project I can’t even bring myself to look at let alone pick up.  I have, however, been working on the beading project.  Unfortunately it is an epic fail, so I’m completely changing the whole damn thing. Hopefully this new incarnation will work. This is number 4 or 5 already with each incarnation having at least 4-5 tries before I move on…each try another Fail.  If this last try does not work, I think I’ll just have to let that one sit for awhile.

The last time I had such an emotional blow (when Dad passed away in 1998), I went into a creative frenzy and even learned a new art – painting.  Dad painted, so I learned what he did.  This time, Mom and I did the same sort of things – needle and yarn crafts – so I find myself “blocked”.  My brain full of ideas that I just can’t bring into being.

I think the only thing I can do is wait for the emo block to work itself out.  The only laxative for this I know of is….time.


Winter WonderSuck…

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More like Winter WTF?!?

Not much to say here except that there has been a whole bunch of SUCK going on…as in lots of little sucky things have happened to add up to one giant HOOVER.  And from what I’ve been reading in other blogs, I’m not the only ones who has had a Hoover sort of week.  WTF?!?


It is over now – so far as I know.

I’ll take it.

I won’t take the daily afternoon hot flashes though.  Mother nature can have those back.

…and the secret knitting begins…

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…but not after two whole nights spent tearing The Chaos apart to locate my stash of knitting needles.  I had even went so far as to hit Michael’s during lunch yesterday to buy the needles I needed – knowing full well that a minimum of TWO SETS of the damn things were at home.


Luckily for my wallet and my sanity, Michael’s didn’t have ANYTHING I needed.

And I found ALL my needles last night.


So now this sweater languishes once again in the bottom of my project bag sitting next to the couch, buried under the new projects ready and waiting to go once the one on my needles is done.

Every night this week that wasn’t spent searching desperately for needles was spent going through a shitload of knitting patterns, my boxes of yarn, and my gift list and seeing who gets what and in what yarn, and wondering CAN I POSSIBLY KNIT IT ALL BEFORE XMAS?!?

You know, typical knitter crap.  You KNOW you are or already HAVE gone through all this, don’t deny it my knitting friends.

For the non-knitters, welcome to the insanity that is Xmas gift knitting.

Usually it starts earlier for me, in October or so, but I haven’t picked up the needles on anything since Mom’s birthday Damask shawl in June.  After the shawl, the weather got really HOT and I lost my mojo.  And it has stayed too warm-ish to knit until the last few weeks.

It came SCREAMING back Sunday night-along with high winds and colder temps.  Just in time to (hopefully) knock out a few small gift projects.  Now that I have all my damn needles, I think I’ll be OK.

Here’s an important tip…organizing all your knitting stuff into one general area only works if you ACTUALLY PUT IT ALL IN THE SAME DAMN SPOT.

So now after I finish off this post, I’m going to go back to watching Bocelli live from Central Park on PBS and pick up the needles and continue on with the first project on my list.

The only thing missing from this whole setup tonight is my faithful knitting companion Kitty.  I do so miss her company on these solo nights at home. 🙁

Time Lord Craziness…

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Gah. OK, so the yarn didn’t show up yesterday, but should be here any day. I can live with that…not like I’m going to drop everything and start on Dr Who socks as soon as it shows up. I’ll probably just fondle the balls for a few days and wish for my sanity back as I rub them together.


What I can’t believe I did was mess up my Netflix queue. Two discs of the last special with hottie David Tennant as the Dr. I get the usual shipment notice in the email yesterday. Disc 2 is due to arrive on Wed.

Whuh?!? Disc 2? I haven’t gotten Disc 1 yet. Wtf?

Quick check of the queue shows I put disc 2 before disc 1. Sigh. Going to take a few days of sending Disc 2 back, getting Disc 1 and then adding Disc 2 back to the queue.

Yeah, the “Ins and Outs of being me”.


Category: Dork Alert, Pah, WTF

I know it’s Saturday cos Blogger says so…

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…this week I have absolutely no concept of time or what day it is…

Oh well. Right now, I know it’s Saturday. I’m sure I’ll wake up tomorrow thinking it’s Wednesday or even Saturday again. A friend commented at dinner “isn’t every day a Saturday when you’re out of work?” Pretty much as the days start melting into one, but I really do like to keep track of things…sigh. I think my brain is going on vacation. Really need to get going on some crafting – I need to keep it a little bit more stimulated than I have been. I’ve been reading a lot, but it needs some diverse activities.

Right now, I just wanna go to bed and get a decent night’s sleep. I haven’t had one in over a week and it’s showing. I get easily confused, disoriented, and am prone to zoning out. Getting a bit more regular with the bike riding will help, but the weather is just too hot to do that. Sigh.

Anyways, I’ve had a nice cup of English Tea, cuddled with the Kitty and now it’s time to pry the kid off the xbox. My bargain shopping partner in crime is back in town and we’re heading out tomorrow for a day of hunting down some good deals. We need our rest.

Good night from the Chaos – where things are getting less and less chaotic (organizing-wise) daily.

Category: Hot, Misc, Organizing, Pah, Shopping

yeah, whut-e-vah…

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Yep, the bike is still in the hallway with a flat.

The jewelry still needs to be re-done.

There has been no drawing.

There has been no organizing.

There has been no cleaning.

I have yet to color my hair – and the grey roots are getting bad. I’m wearing hats to cover it – I NEVER wear hats.

It is now 10:30pm and I’ve just realized I didn’t eat dinner. And it’s not cos I was busy.

I did manage some laundry the other day, but only cos Spencer needed some clothes washed so he could pack them and I ran out of clean socks and undies. The whole “no more clean undies” is a great laundry motivator, isn’t it?

I am a slug.

If only my brain could do physical labor, I wouldn’t be one.

In my brain, I’m one very busy woman, getting all sorts of things done…a little crafting, cooking, cleaning, organizing tornado. Whirrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

Oh, and those gift cards? Gone.

Good to know I still have an imagination and despite my slugnicity, I can still shop.

Category: Fantasy, Pah, Shopping