A year of living grey.

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This is totally not about 50 Shades, so move along if you’re looking for that.

This is about going grey.

One year ago on April 1st, I decided to stop coloring my hair to cover the greys.  The evening of March 31, 2015 was the last time hair coloring chemicals have touched my hair. I had been coloring my hair for about twenty years.

I had been toying with the idea of doing this for about five years and would always chicken out. Always.  My roots would get about an inch long and I’d say to myself, “you can do this, it’s only hair, it’s only a color…” and then two days later I’d be mixing the chemicals and banishing the roots.

I had convinced myself that the grey hairs around my face aged me.  I was convinced that I looked old and tired. I was convinced I was more than 75% grey. I was very persuasive. I believed every word.

By the time March 31st rolled around, I had let my roots grow out almost three inches. This time I was going to do it!  I was going to break free of the chemicals and go natural.  Then I saw my reflection in the mirror at work that afternoon and in about ten seconds flat I had convinced myself again that I should color my hair. That evening after dinner, I mixed up some Revlon medium golden brown and went to work.

By the time I got to the part where my hair “cooks” for half an hour, I knew I had made a big mistake.  My scalp was starting to burn. I washed if all off a bit early, but the damage had been done.  My scalp felt like it had been burned by the chemicals and it was very red. It was the most painful hair experience I’d ever had in my entire life. Coloring my own hair or having it colored had never felt like this before.  Luckily that’s all that happened. I rinsed several times just to make sure that the chemicals were all gone and promised myself I would never go through this again…and then brow beat myself for having given in to my vanity once more. The redness faded after a few hours and my scalp was a bit tender for a few days. I had no blisters and still had all my hair. I felt very lucky.

My free time over the next few days was spent on Google and YouTube searching for ways to “go grey with long hair”.  Most everything involved coloring your hair lighter colors for the next year or so in order to “blend the grey”.  Then there were those that let the roots grow out a few inches and then cut all their hair off. Two extremes I was definitely not going to do to myself.

That Friday, on April 4th, Honey and I went for hair cuts. I sat in the chair and told my stylist it was time for a shorter style.  I went from below shoulder length to short and sassy.

Short and sassy, April 4, 2015

Short and sassy, April 4, 2015


I. Loved. It. Honey took a while to adjust to the look but he’s been supportive all along. I had no adjustment time because every five years or so I would tell my stylist “cut it all off”.  I was going to cut it off gradually but decided to just go for it.  It was only hair, it would grow back.

For the next nine months I went pretty regularly for trims.  Surprisingly my roots were a bit more camouflaged than I thought they would be with my hair so short.

August 2015, the grey is showing more.

August 2015, the grey is showing more.


Even more surprising was that I wasn’t as grey as I thought I was…I gave myself another swift kick for not stopping five years ago…oh well.

Fast forward to about November. The last of the color was now gone and being swept up from the floor around my stylist’s station. Time to grow it out. Talk about rough times ahead. I’m not sure I’ll survive the growing out bit.

Nov 2015-as grey as it gets.

Nov 2015-as grey as it gets.


There isn’t a most recent photo because…vanity. My hair is at an extremely awkward growing out stage and I am constantly threatening to shave it all off if it doesn’t behave.  I shall post update photos if anything changes.

But Donna dear, how do you really feel about going grey?

It’s simple…I love it. I am free of the chemicals that held me hostage most of my adult life.  When I look in the mirror I see my hair as wavy, sticking out where it shouldn’t or looking halfway decent. I no longer see the color. It has been an adjustment for my friends and family, but they know I’m still me. I haven’t changed. There are moments I feel more sassy because…well because…freedom. It comes with a new attitude.

Am I tempted to color again? Hell yes, but I don’t give in…this is me now and I like it.

If you are thinking of doing the same, go to YouTube. Search for “going grey”.  There are so many videos of women who have made the transition. They’ve done it the best way for them and they aren’t going back. Best of all, they are happy with their decisions.

If you color your hair now and won’t stop, that’s ok. Everyone has their own personal reasons. No one but you should make that decision. No one but you can make that decision.

If you are thinking of starting to color your hair, think carefully. It’s an almost lifelong commitment.  It’s a constant decision of continuing the process every time your natural color starts showing. It’s a lot of work, time, and money.  I did it for twenty years and it was worth it to me until the last few years when I started questioning my reasons. Just be true to yourself and make that decision based on what YOU want.

Going grey was the best decision for me, so here I am.

Maybe I should check Ravelry more often…

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Back in December of 2015, I received a request to feature a photo of some socks I made on a designer’s pattern page. I finally saw the request today and gave my permission.

You can now see my stripey socks on Charles Voth’s Design Your Own Toe Up Socks pattern page.

Can you guess which ones they are?

They would be the ones from “Chaosknitter”.  Of course.

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Canadian Geese in the Spring

Are so loud it makes my ears ring

They start up in the morning

Without any warning

Why don’t you just take off, eh?

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Under construction…

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So far I have the new site, some structure, and all of my old blog has been moved over from Blogger.

Please pardon my dust as I try and figure out why some of my photos came over and others did not.  That could take a while…there are 761 posts from the old blog.  Lucky for me not every single one has photos.

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Welcome to the Chaos!

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For my 10th blogging year, I decided to treat the blog to some new digs.  I’ll be moving all my ten-year history over from my Blogger blog over the next few days or weeks – depending on how much work it takes to do it.

If you are new here, I blog about general stuff.  I am a maker: I sew, knit, quilt, crochet, make jewelry, and do general crafting.  There will be plenty of stuff about that with quite possibly some tutorials!  I am constantly organizing something or other and I shop.  I have a relatively “new” English husband (Hi Honey!) and we recently adopted a kitten.  We are empty nesters – my son Spencer is off living life in LA with his lady and two cats.  So there will be plenty of posts about “life”.

Welcome to the Chaos my dear readers.  Grab yourself a cuppa and put your feet up.  I promise I’ll try my best to keep you entertained and keep the cuss words to a minimum.

*Note: Since I’m on my own website now (ooh, aren’t I fancy!!!) I’ll have some affiliate links to try and at least help me pay for all this fanciness – and my crafting and/or stationery obsession.  I actually will have bought and used everything I’m publishing a link for, and I am honest about how I feel about things.

Something new coming soon…

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Bear with me folks.  Big changes coming to the Chaos soon.  Lots of posts with highlights from last year, a new word of the year, and LOTS more!!!

After ten years of on and off blogging, I’ve decided to get back into it on a regular basis.

Aren’t you lucky. 🙂


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Word up

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The last week or so since my last post has been interesting.

Build new Ikea bed with a gabillion gazillion pieces on New Year’s Day as planned.  Check.

Move furniture around to accommodate new bed.  Check.

Notice new dresser (also Ikea, built and positioned about May-ish last year) is wet on bottom, mold is growing.  Um NO CHECK!

Life in the Chaos in chaos since January 2nd.  Check.

Grateful for a TWO bathroom apartment.  Check.  Check.  Check.  Check.  CHECK.

Even more grateful we only had to make one phone call to get this fixed.  Check that for sure.

Even though we are not responsible for getting in the contractors to fix this mess or pay for it, our lives are disrupted just like any other folks going through a remodel.

It seems the shower base (some sort of stone thing original to the apartment – built in the mid 70’s) was cracked and water was leaking through one wall into our bedroom and through the other out to the balcony.  Lovely.

Things are uncovered and recovered daily to prepare for the day’s work, lots of other things were moved into the spare room and living room before work so that the contractors and maintenance crew could get in and out easily.  Plus I am paranoid of them dinging all our new furniture.  Most of the furniture in the apartment is brand new.  Redone shower should be ready for use by this Saturday.

Ramble ramble, check check check.

Seems the word for this post is CHECK.  That’s not really what this post is supposed to be about, so let’s reign this in a bit.

I read blogs.  It seems lately that reading them is a lot easier than writing on my own.  Any-who, with the New Year, there has been a LOT of buzz on the interwebs about resolutions etc.  I’m not into the resolution thing myself.  That has never worked for me.  Something new and different popping up this year (to me anyway) is the “word for the year”.

I’ve taken to this word concept.  Pick a word, live the word for a year.  I like words.  Words can have many meanings as Honey and I are finding out.  We may both speak English, but the differences are there.  Sometimes confusing, sometimes funny, always educational.

Now for My Word…

I have chosen the word “Create” to be my word for the year.  I can create crafty sort of things, create calm, create chaos, create love, create change…  Create can be many things.  I will try to apply “create” to my life every day.  I have a feeling a lot of my creating will be personal and internal (thank you peri-menopause three years and counting) and I don’t usually share those sort of things on the blog.  When I create crafty sorts of things though I will definitely post about it…with photographic evidence too.

“Life is what you make it” is how the saying goes right?  Create.

So there you have it.  Lots of words about Chaos checking and not nearly as much about the main idea of this post.

Today you guys get to decide if I’ve created entertainment or boredom.  Check.

It’s the end of the year…WHAT????

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OK, so I’ve been MIA for a VERY long time.

These last 8 months have just ZOOMED by…it just seems like yesterday that Honey and I got married.

…well it’s just one blog post away anyway.  hahaha

I am my own entertainment.

A lot has happened in the time since the wedding.  Big changes, little changes, change in general.

More Ikea furniture – we are actually having a build-a-thon over the New Year with what we hope are the final pieces.  I sure hope so, I’ve become hooked on Ikea’s “Chocolate Overload” cake and really need to have a piece when we go.  It’s bad enough we have to stop by the cafe for some meatballs.  Very bad for our waistlines, but oh so good in the moment.

Just for the record, Honey has done most of the building – so credit where credit is due.  I keep teasing him that I’m going to rent him out for Ikea assembly by the hour.

Anyway, we’re still settling into the Chaos and I’m still trying to rearrange my things, get rid of a lot of my things, find homes for what is left of my things.  Most of it is sitting at the warehouse where I work.  Boss has generously let us store stuff here while we get things settled.  More on what I’m doing later as I do more of it.  I promise there will be photos.

I hope to blog more about my organizing attempts in the New Year. With all the new organizing I hope to be crafting much more so stay tuned for stuff I make.

I’m looking forward to a creative year in 2015.  I think 2014 was the year of “barely making anything” and that hurts my inner creative bits.  Oooh!  I started dancing again, so you’ll probably read more about that.  I promise no photos of that hot mess.  Trust me, it’s a mess but I do it anyway because I like it.

See you on the other side, and I hope you all have a very Happy, Healthy, and Prosperous New Year!